For most of my life, I lived in performance mode — pushing, proving, striving.

As an athlete, I learned how to hustle through pain, silence my body, and ignore what I needed just to keep going. But when my professional soccer career ended and the whistle blew for the last time, I was left with everything I had pushed down.

Concussions.
Trauma.
A nervous system that never seemed to settle.
The grief of losing something that had once defined me.

I tried to heal the way I was taught — doctors, medication, toughing it out — but nothing touched the root. I didn’t just need to recover — I needed to heal my brain. I needed to learn how to feel safe in my body again and safe in communion with others. I needed to find out who I was beneath the athlete identity. 

That search for healing became a journey that carried me far beyond the field.

Up into the mountains of California
500 miles across the Portuguese Coastline.
Down long, empty beaches in Costa Rica.
Deep into the heart of the Amazon jungle.

Each step took me further into myself.
Into food as medicine.
Into plants as medicine.
Into  silent mornings.
Into the stillness of breath, somatic practice, and healing touch.
Into letting go of “what’s next” and simply being with what is.

And slowly, I came back to myself.

I created this space because I know I’m not alone. There are so many of us — athletes and high-performers — who were never taught how to live outside of performance.
This space is for anyone that wants to be here.

To regulate. To rest. To reconnect 
with our bodies, our truth, and each other.
To stop chasing and start coming home.